Poem: Dawn

I am really scared to post this one. This feels way too personal. A window into my darkest fears. But the voices in my head that sometimes get really loud with all the catastrophizing need a reminder that everything will be okay. It always is. So if you are struggling, you aren't alone. Here goes nothing.

I am fine, I survived.

There was dawn after the darkest night.

My past in the pyre, I burnt in desire

To be loved and held as I wept

Touch starved for a while but I survived.

I was fed and had a bed,

“Be grateful!”, I said in the moments I craved

My father’s embrace, “Come back!"

I wept in the moment as I mummy’s tear escape.

I now wore lipstick, red

I felt calm, free from demons in my head

Locked in the cave away from my friends

Sat on a carpet scarfed down the bread

But storm couldn’t stay away

“I will never find a way out”, I said

Peace is a privilege pricey for the persecuted

The poor never catch a break

I stood strong in the face of the storm

Eroding away until I was gone

I felt the heat, crisp and warm

At the crack of dawn, a phoenix was born.

My heart baptised and welded in fire,

Won so many wars as a wounded warrior

I have dropped my sword now,

I was never a failure.

I am fine, I survived.

There is dawn after every dark night.